Audience is the last thing on our minds.

"I don't really care about the audience, they are my last priority" says aueTashi Gyeltshen , director of the The Red Door and a very creative story teller. Very creative, I tell you.

I find myself similar to aue TG in this aspect. Mind you, I said...this aspect only.

When I sit down to write, I don't really write to PLEASE my audience. Most times, I am even ignorant that I have some friends who read my posts. I write because the need to write is so pressing that I can hardly do anything but write. Breathing or even eating (my favorite thing to do) is an arduous task when I have something to write. It gnaws me constantly, the voices in my head just wouldn't shut up..until I write it down.

It is important for me to write things down, put my feelings into words and let it flow. Because (believe it or not) I don't write much. I face what people call "the writer's block" but there are moments when I am VERY inspired by people, events or a random conversations. That's when I write like there is no tomorrow or even later.

I am a story teller. My posts are my stories. Stories of people and events. When I write, I serve as the bridge..a medium to bring those stories into the world. For me, penning down my records of events, of people and their impact or their impressions on me is far more important than thinking about how my audience (if any) is going to react. Are they going to like it? are they going to complain about the length? Or, my vocab? Or, the structure? Will they like my style? etc and etc. All of these become petty matters and irrelevant questions when I have this sense of urgency to write.

It isn't important who likes it or who doesn't because even if no one likes what I write, I will continue writing. Not because I think much of myself or my writing but because writing is slowly becoming as natural and spontaneous as breathing, a second nature. Something I have always hoped and dreamed for happening in me. And, I cannot dare risk this development by not writing. 
Whether it be 2 lines, 200 words or 600 plus.. I will have to put it down in writing. I will have to document it and writing is the only way I know how. And, some day when the time is just right.. I might act on my friend Jigme's suggestion and write a book. You never know, you know? 

But for now, I am immensely grateful to all those individuals (friends and strangers alike) who have helped me keep my love affair with writing ..alive and kicking. Thank you for the inspiration!
Like aue TG's films are about finding his purpose of life through Art, I can only pray to find mine through writings. 
Until then, I shall keep annoying you with my posts, irrespective of the length or relevance. HAHA.